The Fifth Month: March

3rd
Exhaustion. T. nearly 5 months old and we’ve had a few days/nights where we have been unable to settle him. I was feeding him in bed this morning at 9am, when he started his projectile vomiting. I tried to hold him over the edge of the bed, only to bang his head on the corner of the bedside cot. Awful war wound, bleeding bruise under left eye. I was mortified and cried a lot of the day, after taking him to the health centre to be checked. They made me sign a form to say what had happened, probably monitoring me for child abuse. Full of guilt and remorse, I hope there will be no scar on his lovely baby skin. Am in zombified state.