The Sixth Month: April
18th
You are six months this week. How fast the time flies. You are just sitting up, have been for a couple of weeks and are now keeling over less. I think about writing often, to hold on and be aware of these precious moments. You sleep 3 times a day, usually 2 x half hours and 1 hour and it’s barely time enough to catch up, usually on necessary things like washing up, hanging out washing and making myself lunch. Never mind anything grander or more creative.
You giggle when I massage your thighs, and I wonder if I hold you and touch you enough. You play more when you feed – looking away, kicking you legs, batting the book or paper I am reading. Sometimes you look at me and I have been staring miles away, spaced out and I wonder if I need to be more connected. Am I making you into a self-sufficient, contained child, like I was? I want you to need people more and to be at ease with them, to have friends, to make them easily.
You explore everything with your mouth, look around the room when we arrive anywhere. I feel it is all going in, being absorbed. You are dribbling a lot, and I can just see 2 tiny teeth on your lower gums, they look as if they are already there.
Feeds; 7/8am, 10/11am, 1/2pm, 4/5 pmish, 7/8pm, 10/11pm. Waking t 6anm and usually in the bed with me after midnight. You are very restless from 4-5am, twitching and rubbing your face. You maybe feed at 1/2am then at 4/5am or sometimes not and just wake at 6am. I put your face to my breast and let you suckle as I try to snooze. From about 4 months old you would wake and be talking to yourself. Each time I have tried to record or video this, the sight of the camera silences you. You’re just too curious!
You are six months this week. How fast the time flies. You are just sitting up, have been for a couple of weeks and are now keeling over less. I think about writing often, to hold on and be aware of these precious moments. You sleep 3 times a day, usually 2 x half hours and 1 hour and it’s barely time enough to catch up, usually on necessary things like washing up, hanging out washing and making myself lunch. Never mind anything grander or more creative.
You giggle when I massage your thighs, and I wonder if I hold you and touch you enough. You play more when you feed – looking away, kicking you legs, batting the book or paper I am reading. Sometimes you look at me and I have been staring miles away, spaced out and I wonder if I need to be more connected. Am I making you into a self-sufficient, contained child, like I was? I want you to need people more and to be at ease with them, to have friends, to make them easily.
You explore everything with your mouth, look around the room when we arrive anywhere. I feel it is all going in, being absorbed. You are dribbling a lot, and I can just see 2 tiny teeth on your lower gums, they look as if they are already there.
Feeds; 7/8am, 10/11am, 1/2pm, 4/5 pmish, 7/8pm, 10/11pm. Waking t 6anm and usually in the bed with me after midnight. You are very restless from 4-5am, twitching and rubbing your face. You maybe feed at 1/2am then at 4/5am or sometimes not and just wake at 6am. I put your face to my breast and let you suckle as I try to snooze. From about 4 months old you would wake and be talking to yourself. Each time I have tried to record or video this, the sight of the camera silences you. You’re just too curious!
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