The Forty Sixth Month: September 2008
17th
Play today:
‘going to the dump’. The world map floor puzzle in sitting room was dump. Dolls house furniture in front room was the rubbish. My intervention: using the doll’s push chair which you were already working with as the transportation method.
You moved all furniture from house to other room, and building blocks and components of spiral puzzle to ‘dump’. We then sat on sofa and drove off. I was instructed to be reversing ‘beep beeps’ and was told exactly where button was.
I left you at Lucy time for the first time today. You seemed a bit reticent at first, but soon went off, happily separating from me.
2 days in new class with Katie, you are very exhausted in the afternoon. You called it ‘my new school’ and exclaimed with surprise that you had seen Jesse and Noah in the playground. You called their classes ‘new schools’ too.
Sat 20th
A hard week. Me washed out, exhausted from period. You settled Ok in the new class. But were always tired and clingy in the afternoons. My patience was limited and I wavered between being empathetic and exasperated with you. You started playing up again at mealtimes, playing with your food, trying to tip water into it etc, and that always drives me mad. I became drawn into your stuff, and just the day after I had talked to another parent about not engaging with the stuff of our children as a means of coping.
Thurs you said you didn;t want to go to school or Lucy’s ever again. I asked you what you wanted to do, and you said ‘go to the park everyday’. Thurs night you were crying and unsettled at bed time and getting up several times after we had put you to bed. I was trying to get away to make the birthday cake for Grandma, and was trying to be ’strict’ with you, get you to settle alone after I had sat with you a while. In the end, I held you cuddled on my lap and you fell asleep there in a few minutes.
I cried on Monday from exhaustion and period sickness. You were quite oblivious to my distress and carried on climbing on me and playing under the bed covers where I lay. I was later quite numbed by this and wondered if you were going to be an unempathetic man.
I tried to have a day on Friday where I focused on you. We cycled up to a school to have a look round, and past a heavenly smelling bakery on the way home, where I bought you a sticky bun, then we went and ate it in the park. I could see how tired you were, and by the time we got home (1pm) things were descending into madness. You were hitting me and throwing things, started by me removing the stool you were trying to drag upstairs tied to a length of tape measure. I felt a sense of panic and helplessness, as you ignored my requests to stop hitting me, and rang Pete, but had to go into front gardent to do this. Meanwhile you threw everything in the hallway on the floor…it got ugly. And you wanted cuddling
I sat in the garden and ate lunch, numbed and stunned and still feeling hostile towards you. Eventually I got a few things together and we drove to Willsbridge Mill, you slept immediately. We had a lovely afternoon in warm sunshine, playing by a stream, walking and climbing on things, looking at frogs and spiders and getting apples from a tree (you on on my shoulders shaking the tree).
The other day you played the whole day with Indi, and when we come home to have some quiet time in the ‘sofa room’ (reading stories), you sat down next to me and said ‘ I love you’.
We were walking to the park, and you saw a huge fat dead slug on the road.
How do slug’s cross the road is how you started the conversation.
You talked about how it hadn’t held it’s mummy’s hand while crossing the road, so that’s why it was dead, then asked ‘do slug have arms?’
Playing with M in the street the other day I heard you shouting at him: ‘you’re going on the naughty step’ You learned that playing at their house’.
2nd day in Katie’s class, you have news time and told everyone about boats on a lake and remote controls, speaking confidently as part of the group of children around a table.
Apparently at snack time you made everyone laugh with your funny songs..
One afternoon I picked you up and an assistant said how amazing you were, that you didn’t seem to be phased by anything. She asked how you were as a baby – I guess you were unphased – you certainly were very easy-going.
Play today:
‘going to the dump’. The world map floor puzzle in sitting room was dump. Dolls house furniture in front room was the rubbish. My intervention: using the doll’s push chair which you were already working with as the transportation method.
You moved all furniture from house to other room, and building blocks and components of spiral puzzle to ‘dump’. We then sat on sofa and drove off. I was instructed to be reversing ‘beep beeps’ and was told exactly where button was.
I left you at Lucy time for the first time today. You seemed a bit reticent at first, but soon went off, happily separating from me.
2 days in new class with Katie, you are very exhausted in the afternoon. You called it ‘my new school’ and exclaimed with surprise that you had seen Jesse and Noah in the playground. You called their classes ‘new schools’ too.
Sat 20th
A hard week. Me washed out, exhausted from period. You settled Ok in the new class. But were always tired and clingy in the afternoons. My patience was limited and I wavered between being empathetic and exasperated with you. You started playing up again at mealtimes, playing with your food, trying to tip water into it etc, and that always drives me mad. I became drawn into your stuff, and just the day after I had talked to another parent about not engaging with the stuff of our children as a means of coping.
Thurs you said you didn;t want to go to school or Lucy’s ever again. I asked you what you wanted to do, and you said ‘go to the park everyday’. Thurs night you were crying and unsettled at bed time and getting up several times after we had put you to bed. I was trying to get away to make the birthday cake for Grandma, and was trying to be ’strict’ with you, get you to settle alone after I had sat with you a while. In the end, I held you cuddled on my lap and you fell asleep there in a few minutes.
I cried on Monday from exhaustion and period sickness. You were quite oblivious to my distress and carried on climbing on me and playing under the bed covers where I lay. I was later quite numbed by this and wondered if you were going to be an unempathetic man.
I tried to have a day on Friday where I focused on you. We cycled up to a school to have a look round, and past a heavenly smelling bakery on the way home, where I bought you a sticky bun, then we went and ate it in the park. I could see how tired you were, and by the time we got home (1pm) things were descending into madness. You were hitting me and throwing things, started by me removing the stool you were trying to drag upstairs tied to a length of tape measure. I felt a sense of panic and helplessness, as you ignored my requests to stop hitting me, and rang Pete, but had to go into front gardent to do this. Meanwhile you threw everything in the hallway on the floor…it got ugly. And you wanted cuddling
I sat in the garden and ate lunch, numbed and stunned and still feeling hostile towards you. Eventually I got a few things together and we drove to Willsbridge Mill, you slept immediately. We had a lovely afternoon in warm sunshine, playing by a stream, walking and climbing on things, looking at frogs and spiders and getting apples from a tree (you on on my shoulders shaking the tree).
The other day you played the whole day with Indi, and when we come home to have some quiet time in the ‘sofa room’ (reading stories), you sat down next to me and said ‘ I love you’.
We were walking to the park, and you saw a huge fat dead slug on the road.
How do slug’s cross the road is how you started the conversation.
You talked about how it hadn’t held it’s mummy’s hand while crossing the road, so that’s why it was dead, then asked ‘do slug have arms?’
Playing with M in the street the other day I heard you shouting at him: ‘you’re going on the naughty step’ You learned that playing at their house’.
2nd day in Katie’s class, you have news time and told everyone about boats on a lake and remote controls, speaking confidently as part of the group of children around a table.
Apparently at snack time you made everyone laugh with your funny songs..
One afternoon I picked you up and an assistant said how amazing you were, that you didn’t seem to be phased by anything. She asked how you were as a baby – I guess you were unphased – you certainly were very easy-going.
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